Life can be difficult; full of anxiety, guilt when we know we are doing something wrong. It affects us every now and then but then, when we lie to ourselves that; everything is fine”, “its just a phase”. We keep screaming at ourselves that this is the truth! This is our fate but this lying gets worse over time.
Life can be difficult when we avoid the truth because lying to ourselves is an easier option than saying the truth and being hurt. Just for the short-term of ease, we affect our mental peace for the long-term. How long are we going to do this for? How long are we going to lie to ourselves? The pain seems endless so why don’t we just end it?
Honestly, just thinking about ending this anxiety is giving me more anxiety. My heart rate is just increasing. Why is it so difficult? I don’t think I will ever be able to stop lying to myself, maybe because I don’t even know what the truth is now. The happy bubble around me has been there for so many years. It keeps me safe. It makes me think that my false dreams can come true, it gives me hope. I don’t know if being hopeful is good or not but lying to myself definitely eases my life for the time being.
This blog is not written to make you stop lying to yourself that is up to you what you want, it is there to make you realise that yes you aren’t the only one. We all could be going through this and not realise it. Treat this blog as a wakeup call. Are you lying to yourself too?
Hi readers, sorry I had not been blogging for few weeks. Some of you might know that I am a trainee teacher and it got difficult to manage my university, school and blogging. I will try to get back to blogging. Thank you